Friday, March 13, 2009
last dae of sch ended yesterdae...
although still had to attend sch todae but it's @hg stadium, my last year of sports day with nvss. lols. Mrs tang said tat todae will be mh & I der las year of contributions to nvss for this event. Honoured enough hahas =))
e event ended briefly & i rushed home after tat. Reached home abt 2 & went to sleep, felt so dead, came bac & sleep & should actually wake up @ 3 to go to sch but in the end nvr wake up cos felt too sick le so continued sleeping lor. had tuition till 8. e teacher is sooooh tall, fun & interesting =))) love it =)) but gonna retire from b'ball le hahas =)))
haizzzz.... nvr go odac still gotta pae 20 bucks .... no food =(( then my t-shiirt still haven got it!!! everybody said tat it was nice but i still haven got mine !!! rahhhh!!!! sianz =[ i'm SO gonna GET IT when i returned on tues muahhahahas =]
tues & thurs still got prac practice/test!!!!! tues is chem & thurs is physics ]: hope tat i will pass thru, dun add wrong chemicals & not clumsy :-P
ai jia gd luck for ur singing competition next mondae @ campus superstar =)) had a nice talk wit u on e phone las nite & was soooh tired till morning almost overslept hahas :-P
I’m @ war wit myself everyday. Telling myself to let go & how foolish I am for hanging on. Nth seems to work. I have tried making myself hate u, to not 'care' . I have reminisced the past, & even dwelled on all e bad memories, all e horrible words we hav shared tgt trying to convince myself u ar e enemy.
There u ar within reach, yet I cannot hold u. I cannot kiss u as I desire & cannot make u luv me as ii hav wished. My head is telling me I am a fool & that e pain must end. My heart tells me love has no end, no boundaries, no rules or fine lines.
U noe nothing about this pain, about the torture. I wouldn't give to let go, to set u free from my heart. I hav searched & searched, to find a way to release this pain, & I am left with nth. Without your love, I will always be left with nothing. This is a game I cannot win, I cannot overcome this, I want to give up, but there is no point in tat, because e feeling I feel will still be there. No matter how defeated I may feel, I can't end this... ]:
The pain was deep, unbearable & painful. I'll never forget all the sadness, all e uncontrollable tears. Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got & although it is hard. I am beginning to forget what I have not.
U were a special part of my life tat I will nvr forget. A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret. U gave me some happy memories tat I'll keep in my heart forever. Although sometimes I wish tat u & I didn't have to part but its all destined ]:
U were my first love & my true love, tat will always be a fact. After all of e heartache, sadness & never ending pain. I am truly honoured tat u was once mine & tats a fact. But still I love you & loving someone else will always seem strange.
Would u jus listen & pls don't say a word. Nt ever! I'd like u to rmb tat once upon a time, u said 4eva. This, I hope & dreamt tat I was e one who threw them away but it's too late. But even if i lose u, I will still say i miss & love u 4eva ]:
although still had to attend sch todae but it's @hg stadium, my last year of sports day with nvss. lols. Mrs tang said tat todae will be mh & I der las year of contributions to nvss for this event. Honoured enough hahas =))
e event ended briefly & i rushed home after tat. Reached home abt 2 & went to sleep, felt so dead, came bac & sleep & should actually wake up @ 3 to go to sch but in the end nvr wake up cos felt too sick le so continued sleeping lor. had tuition till 8. e teacher is sooooh tall, fun & interesting =))) love it =)) but gonna retire from b'ball le hahas =)))
haizzzz.... nvr go odac still gotta pae 20 bucks .... no food =(( then my t-shiirt still haven got it!!! everybody said tat it was nice but i still haven got mine !!! rahhhh!!!! sianz =[ i'm SO gonna GET IT when i returned on tues muahhahahas =]
tues & thurs still got prac practice/test!!!!! tues is chem & thurs is physics ]: hope tat i will pass thru, dun add wrong chemicals & not clumsy :-P
ai jia gd luck for ur singing competition next mondae @ campus superstar =)) had a nice talk wit u on e phone las nite & was soooh tired till morning almost overslept hahas :-P
I’m @ war wit myself everyday. Telling myself to let go & how foolish I am for hanging on. Nth seems to work. I have tried making myself hate u, to not 'care' . I have reminisced the past, & even dwelled on all e bad memories, all e horrible words we hav shared tgt trying to convince myself u ar e enemy.
There u ar within reach, yet I cannot hold u. I cannot kiss u as I desire & cannot make u luv me as ii hav wished. My head is telling me I am a fool & that e pain must end. My heart tells me love has no end, no boundaries, no rules or fine lines.
U noe nothing about this pain, about the torture. I wouldn't give to let go, to set u free from my heart. I hav searched & searched, to find a way to release this pain, & I am left with nth. Without your love, I will always be left with nothing. This is a game I cannot win, I cannot overcome this, I want to give up, but there is no point in tat, because e feeling I feel will still be there. No matter how defeated I may feel, I can't end this... ]:
The pain was deep, unbearable & painful. I'll never forget all the sadness, all e uncontrollable tears. Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got & although it is hard. I am beginning to forget what I have not.
U were a special part of my life tat I will nvr forget. A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret. U gave me some happy memories tat I'll keep in my heart forever. Although sometimes I wish tat u & I didn't have to part but its all destined ]:
U were my first love & my true love, tat will always be a fact. After all of e heartache, sadness & never ending pain. I am truly honoured tat u was once mine & tats a fact. But still I love you & loving someone else will always seem strange.
Would u jus listen & pls don't say a word. Nt ever! I'd like u to rmb tat once upon a time, u said 4eva. This, I hope & dreamt tat I was e one who threw them away but it's too late. But even if i lose u, I will still say i miss & love u 4eva ]:
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