Saturday, March 28, 2009
3 long days went pass fast & adam khoo's "i am gifted, so are you!" programme ended. Haviin leroy, andrea & hui ling as our trainer, i am really honoured. Especially leroy!!!! He is really a funny chap hahas. He has powers in makin others cry!!!! I cry till my eyes are swollen faintz....
Can sae tat this programme has really helped me a lot in life, status & has a great motivation towards studyinn. Every living humans are e same, equal. I have learnt not to classify frens unlike some others who classified frens till so clear. No hatreds, no feuds, no troubles, world is a peace =)
This pprogramme has greatly made a great impact to my life. I hav decided to changed for e better. These long days have not gone down to e drain =) I will apply them towards study & life. Has this made my thinking even more matured ??? lols :-P
Lets talk abt todae. Went to a fun fair in Hai Sing, quite fast but left quickly hahas. Went to bowl at E Hub hahas. Quite fun but gt a few rolls which are missed & almost strike one hahas :D
To this onli onli onli person ( i think you know who you are ) :
Life has changed greatly after u left. Overnight u have made me a stranger. Its really hurt to see you leave & ignoring. All i wann is to be like e past, as in jus talk like frens, but its impossible right ??? yea i know its impossible. I hav hurt you in the past, this i know. For this i sincerely apologised. Even if you wan me to KNEEL down infront of u and apologise i dun mind. All i wan is your forgiveness. Inside we know wad is going on but its just that one thing tat happened made you ignore me. Never gonna lie to you & hurt you anymore. I really really wished to hear u to forgive me. Never gonna let u go, cos i really really really miss u & love you still ]:
still gt one more leroy der but its not wit me hahas :-P
3:44 AM
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
sch starts sooooh fast, i'm still not used to it lor lols :-P jus wanna sleep later & longer jiu enough le hahas. But anywae these few days i jus look like a laughing box. Can't stop laughing lols, nerves diconnected liao hahas :D
todae went recording wit mrs tay, mr loh, wei ling, mh, aeroy,hs & jas hahas :D was so funny lols :-P anywae so many NG'S hahas. another funny thing was randy showing off his claimed "professional" skills & even natasha of a diff race know how to do it !!!!!!!!! haiz randy long wae to go yea ....
oh todae is a long long dae wor .... was informed tat e project had to be added on wit another two sportsman & gotta rush cos from tmr onwards till fri got this adam khoo der "i am gifted, so are you!" der programme which lasts from morning 8 till night 9. OMG!!!! stayed in sch longer than stae at home !!!!! faintz.
oh ya hotel for dogs is a very nice movie hahas ;D touching, funny one hahas =))) thks for ur treat yea ;-)
gotta take lots of rest for tmr de long day. buaiizzz ;-)
todae went recording wit mrs tay, mr loh, wei ling, mh, aeroy,hs & jas hahas :D was so funny lols :-P anywae so many NG'S hahas. another funny thing was randy showing off his claimed "professional" skills & even natasha of a diff race know how to do it !!!!!!!!! haiz randy long wae to go yea ....
oh todae is a long long dae wor .... was informed tat e project had to be added on wit another two sportsman & gotta rush cos from tmr onwards till fri got this adam khoo der "i am gifted, so are you!" der programme which lasts from morning 8 till night 9. OMG!!!! stayed in sch longer than stae at home !!!!! faintz.
oh ya hotel for dogs is a very nice movie hahas ;D touching, funny one hahas =))) thks for ur treat yea ;-)
gotta take lots of rest for tmr de long day. buaiizzz ;-)
6:59 AM
Friday, March 13, 2009
last dae of sch ended yesterdae...
although still had to attend sch todae but it's @hg stadium, my last year of sports day with nvss. lols. Mrs tang said tat todae will be mh & I der las year of contributions to nvss for this event. Honoured enough hahas =))
e event ended briefly & i rushed home after tat. Reached home abt 2 & went to sleep, felt so dead, came bac & sleep & should actually wake up @ 3 to go to sch but in the end nvr wake up cos felt too sick le so continued sleeping lor. had tuition till 8. e teacher is sooooh tall, fun & interesting =))) love it =)) but gonna retire from b'ball le hahas =)))
haizzzz.... nvr go odac still gotta pae 20 bucks .... no food =(( then my t-shiirt still haven got it!!! everybody said tat it was nice but i still haven got mine !!! rahhhh!!!! sianz =[ i'm SO gonna GET IT when i returned on tues muahhahahas =]
tues & thurs still got prac practice/test!!!!! tues is chem & thurs is physics ]: hope tat i will pass thru, dun add wrong chemicals & not clumsy :-P
ai jia gd luck for ur singing competition next mondae @ campus superstar =)) had a nice talk wit u on e phone las nite & was soooh tired till morning almost overslept hahas :-P
I’m @ war wit myself everyday. Telling myself to let go & how foolish I am for hanging on. Nth seems to work. I have tried making myself hate u, to not 'care' . I have reminisced the past, & even dwelled on all e bad memories, all e horrible words we hav shared tgt trying to convince myself u ar e enemy.
There u ar within reach, yet I cannot hold u. I cannot kiss u as I desire & cannot make u luv me as ii hav wished. My head is telling me I am a fool & that e pain must end. My heart tells me love has no end, no boundaries, no rules or fine lines.
U noe nothing about this pain, about the torture. I wouldn't give to let go, to set u free from my heart. I hav searched & searched, to find a way to release this pain, & I am left with nth. Without your love, I will always be left with nothing. This is a game I cannot win, I cannot overcome this, I want to give up, but there is no point in tat, because e feeling I feel will still be there. No matter how defeated I may feel, I can't end this... ]:
The pain was deep, unbearable & painful. I'll never forget all the sadness, all e uncontrollable tears. Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got & although it is hard. I am beginning to forget what I have not.
U were a special part of my life tat I will nvr forget. A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret. U gave me some happy memories tat I'll keep in my heart forever. Although sometimes I wish tat u & I didn't have to part but its all destined ]:
U were my first love & my true love, tat will always be a fact. After all of e heartache, sadness & never ending pain. I am truly honoured tat u was once mine & tats a fact. But still I love you & loving someone else will always seem strange.
Would u jus listen & pls don't say a word. Nt ever! I'd like u to rmb tat once upon a time, u said 4eva. This, I hope & dreamt tat I was e one who threw them away but it's too late. But even if i lose u, I will still say i miss & love u 4eva ]:
although still had to attend sch todae but it's @hg stadium, my last year of sports day with nvss. lols. Mrs tang said tat todae will be mh & I der las year of contributions to nvss for this event. Honoured enough hahas =))
e event ended briefly & i rushed home after tat. Reached home abt 2 & went to sleep, felt so dead, came bac & sleep & should actually wake up @ 3 to go to sch but in the end nvr wake up cos felt too sick le so continued sleeping lor. had tuition till 8. e teacher is sooooh tall, fun & interesting =))) love it =)) but gonna retire from b'ball le hahas =)))
haizzzz.... nvr go odac still gotta pae 20 bucks .... no food =(( then my t-shiirt still haven got it!!! everybody said tat it was nice but i still haven got mine !!! rahhhh!!!! sianz =[ i'm SO gonna GET IT when i returned on tues muahhahahas =]
tues & thurs still got prac practice/test!!!!! tues is chem & thurs is physics ]: hope tat i will pass thru, dun add wrong chemicals & not clumsy :-P
ai jia gd luck for ur singing competition next mondae @ campus superstar =)) had a nice talk wit u on e phone las nite & was soooh tired till morning almost overslept hahas :-P
I’m @ war wit myself everyday. Telling myself to let go & how foolish I am for hanging on. Nth seems to work. I have tried making myself hate u, to not 'care' . I have reminisced the past, & even dwelled on all e bad memories, all e horrible words we hav shared tgt trying to convince myself u ar e enemy.
There u ar within reach, yet I cannot hold u. I cannot kiss u as I desire & cannot make u luv me as ii hav wished. My head is telling me I am a fool & that e pain must end. My heart tells me love has no end, no boundaries, no rules or fine lines.
U noe nothing about this pain, about the torture. I wouldn't give to let go, to set u free from my heart. I hav searched & searched, to find a way to release this pain, & I am left with nth. Without your love, I will always be left with nothing. This is a game I cannot win, I cannot overcome this, I want to give up, but there is no point in tat, because e feeling I feel will still be there. No matter how defeated I may feel, I can't end this... ]:
The pain was deep, unbearable & painful. I'll never forget all the sadness, all e uncontrollable tears. Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got & although it is hard. I am beginning to forget what I have not.
U were a special part of my life tat I will nvr forget. A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret. U gave me some happy memories tat I'll keep in my heart forever. Although sometimes I wish tat u & I didn't have to part but its all destined ]:
U were my first love & my true love, tat will always be a fact. After all of e heartache, sadness & never ending pain. I am truly honoured tat u was once mine & tats a fact. But still I love you & loving someone else will always seem strange.
Would u jus listen & pls don't say a word. Nt ever! I'd like u to rmb tat once upon a time, u said 4eva. This, I hope & dreamt tat I was e one who threw them away but it's too late. But even if i lose u, I will still say i miss & love u 4eva ]:
7:27 AM
Monday, March 9, 2009
bac to sch on e first dae wit a geo test & a chem prac...
did not study for e geo test at all, i think i gonna fail for this test le. chem prac i onli took less than 30 mins to finish, i suspect whether i got made any mistake annot?? faintzz... brain is mal-functioned recently. Can anyone jus twist e facts bac ?
Life looks jus like a storyline. Once its over its like a history. Things happen as & when they wan. Its beyond my reach to control. Gods take away things from me & nvr will it comes bac agn. Onli the ones that who still survives will be able to make changes for the future.
Life still goes on, its jus that some things that happened had opened e "route of sadness". Nth will be more fulfilling than b4. Sudden big changes have made a big diff in my life. Sry, its too late for everyting to be done. I think its time i put this to an end & start a new life ......
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did not study for e geo test at all, i think i gonna fail for this test le. chem prac i onli took less than 30 mins to finish, i suspect whether i got made any mistake annot?? faintzz... brain is mal-functioned recently. Can anyone jus twist e facts bac ?
Life looks jus like a storyline. Once its over its like a history. Things happen as & when they wan. Its beyond my reach to control. Gods take away things from me & nvr will it comes bac agn. Onli the ones that who still survives will be able to make changes for the future.
Life still goes on, its jus that some things that happened had opened e "route of sadness". Nth will be more fulfilling than b4. Sudden big changes have made a big diff in my life. Sry, its too late for everyting to be done. I think its time i put this to an end & start a new life ......
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7:23 AM
Saturday, March 7, 2009
A TIRED & LONG WEEK....
Things have finished so fast. You have always been a great person. A very happy-going person. I did not visit nor seen you this year even in e CNY. I hope that u had a peaceful journey today. Hope you can live peacefully @ ur new house that we have booked for you. Gods will watch over us, pls dun worry abt us. We will take care of ourselves.
Thinkin of e past, I remembered tat u always sit on e chair & table with that "hunch-back" position. Havin remembered tat position, time & time agn it reminds me e past. Its too late to do anything, I wish you a peaceful journey. You have tired your life throughout & now its time tat u stop suffering. We will help you to continue to fight e court case.
May u rest peacefully in e netherworld. Ambittabha :'(
Things have finished so fast. You have always been a great person. A very happy-going person. I did not visit nor seen you this year even in e CNY. I hope that u had a peaceful journey today. Hope you can live peacefully @ ur new house that we have booked for you. Gods will watch over us, pls dun worry abt us. We will take care of ourselves.
Thinkin of e past, I remembered tat u always sit on e chair & table with that "hunch-back" position. Havin remembered tat position, time & time agn it reminds me e past. Its too late to do anything, I wish you a peaceful journey. You have tired your life throughout & now its time tat u stop suffering. We will help you to continue to fight e court case.
May u rest peacefully in e netherworld. Ambittabha :'(
5:12 AM
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
life is unpredictable, you nvr noe when things wil come or go. They jus leave without any prior notice. So many things happen in a sudden. Ppl often take things for granted. We should treasure them like gems. It's too late to treasure once it is gone. This was wad happen to me. Two cases jus happen on me. In a straight row. Didn't expect things to happen that sudden. No mood to talk more le bye =((((
4:53 AM
Monday, March 2, 2009
dreadful week has gone & a new week has begun ... looking forward to days tat are improving yea ;-)
jus got e o levels de slip todae abt the payment usin GIRO. Not fair !!! fas scheme der pae so little =(( why can't we use edusave to pay ??? haizzzz... jus dun understand why govt. make things so complicated lols :D
haizz.. still gotta rush on SS project. Haven even done a single thing . How wonderful it is lols. Guys can't be trusted :-P muahahahas . gtg rush out le :-O
jus got e o levels de slip todae abt the payment usin GIRO. Not fair !!! fas scheme der pae so little =(( why can't we use edusave to pay ??? haizzzz... jus dun understand why govt. make things so complicated lols :D
haizz.. still gotta rush on SS project. Haven even done a single thing . How wonderful it is lols. Guys can't be trusted :-P muahahahas . gtg rush out le :-O
1:47 AM
